60 cents is everything you need

Facebook account??

2009-11-23T22:14:00.000-08:00

I got myself one, with one sole purpose in mind:

TO DISTURB FELICIA.

Maybe some others on the way.

I CAN'T STAND IT!!!

2009-11-23T01:32:00.000-08:00

Boogie is too cute!! D:

You know, I just realised it today... SO I was sitting down reading some comic books. Then I looked at Boogie. He was just lying down on the floor. He looked really lonely and bored. Then I wondered.

Is Boogie always like this when I'm not here at home, in Indonesia?
Is Boogie always lonely?

So I felt bad for wanting to enjoy reading comic books by myself. I felt really guilty. Well, both of my sisters are enjoying themselves with playstation games and sleeping... *sighs*

Then right after that, I played with him. I threw a little ball and he ran after it. I wanted to take the ball off of him, but he escaped. So, he wanted me to run after him, huh?

So I did. It was really tiring running after a tiny dog in a big house with lots of furniture.
I couldn't stop now, because he wanted me to play with him. It pains my heart to see him in this state. So I HAVE to keep playing with him. I don't want him to feel so lonely every day with no one to play with. Sob. I actually cried thinking about this.

Even now, as I'm blogging, Boogie is asking me to play with him. He's gnawing on my laptop cables to get my attention with a ball next to him. What a clever dog.

So, because I love him so, I'm going to tire myself even more by chasing after him again.
Till then.

ARGH!!!

2009-11-20T19:35:00.000-08:00

BOOGIE IS TOO CUTE FOR MY HEART TO HANDLE.

*squeaaaaaaaaaaaal*

Anyway, everyone is on facebook again, I presume. "bnvc"
Boogie typed that letters enclosed by " ".
w12222z

I officially declare Facebook as my most detested website ever exists on Earth.
HMPH. *spits*

OH NO...!!

2009-11-20T00:56:00.000-08:00

Everyone using the internet in the airport is on Facebook!

Bitter laugh.

The flight is delayed!

2009-11-20T00:45:00.000-08:00

So I went to Times in the airport and bought myself 2 books, "What's the point of school?", non fiction and "What the dog saw", also non- fiction. I laughed at some facts written in "What's the point of school".

And Felicia is next to me, indulging herself in the fun world of Facebook!!
Along with several other people... or maybe A LOT of other people.
Why is everyone on facebook? I don't get it. *bitter*
Why would people want to expose their identities in the huge world of Facebook?
Aren't they scared of being found out?

I CAN NEVER UNDERSTAND HUMANS.

I personally don't really like facebook.
That's why I refuse to get myself an account D:

I'm pretty much satisfied with Gaiaonline. Woo hoo.

Second entry for the day yo.

FREEEEEEEEEEEE

2009-11-19T22:31:00.000-08:00

AHAHAHAHA.

I figured I should go do a little update for this almost- dead blog of mine.
So I did.

Finally, we graduated on the 19th of November, 2009.
Went for the morning ceremony and the prom night.
To be honest, both ceremonies were so unnecessary... I felt that I wasted so much time going for the rehearsals for Grad day while everyone else spent their time at home, resting and partying and watching anime and going out and blahblahblah.
But then again... I think it was worth it. I have to praise the Lord for giving me such rare opportunities for me in my life.
Praise the Lord :D

GAWD, I was so worn out. (Pffft. For at least 4 days, the total time I spent sleeping was about 6 hours :D)
I was suprised I survived. Am I nocturnal or what.

So I'm at the airport now.
Forgot to bring ICs, couldn't enter. Then I thought, "Aww, things would go well. We have GOD."
That was when we saw that my flight was delayed. By one hour.

My guardian went back home and retrieved our ICs. Hahas. GOD is so mighty. He did almost everything for me. Not only this, but during the Grad day performance too. No one could tell we only rehearsed for 2 days.
Couldn't stop feeling so glad and happy now.

YESSSSSSSSS BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOGIEEEEEEEEEEE. Ahahaha.

I WATCHED YU-GI-OH 5Ds yo!!! And read HunterxHunter and Yu Yu Hakusho manga.

DC?

2009-06-18T00:22:00.001-07:00

Guess what... Boogie is getting cuter. I see some golden fur growing!! Boogie is a golden tan yorkshire!! (can change, though)

So today... While waiting for friends updating their blogs, I decided to update too. Why did I know they were going to update? MSN, of course!! But I kept dc-ing. So now I am the dc-ing queen.

Borrowed from Bear: "All hail the dc-ing queen!!"

I don't even know what to type anymore. My life is just so boring. I don't have anything new to tell you. I don't even bother doing my homework. Geez.

Boogie is basking in the sun!! That's probably all I can tell you.

Ahhh, this brilliant idea... I will post questions here, tell my friends to do them.

1) Janice or Alien?

2) Alien or Janice?

3) 1+1 = ?

4) I know.

5) Tobi?

6) Naraku?

7) Nails?

8) Dogs or cats?

9) Games or homework?

10) This is the most difficult question to answer. Yes?

Anywayyyyy. YEAH!

Anyway...

2009-06-11T00:27:00.000-07:00

*Alien appears magically with a magical wand casting a magical spell and magically revives the blog*

Isn't it magical, people, that a click on the "Submit post" can revive a blog so dead like mine?
And the fact that I magically haven't even magically touched any of my magical homework *except for the Oral booklet* receives no humble magical complaints is magically true.

SPAM THE "MAGIC"!!!

Anyway, I think I want to change my skin. When the "blog" word isn't stated *GAH! MOSQUITOES!* it sounds kinda strange. Oh well.

Ahem.. Here I am, holding my bladder *GAH! MOSQUITOES!* and thinking of what to type... I've got some clues but for some reason unknown to mankind, I don't know *GAH! MOSQUITOES!* what they are for. Lalalalala. Hmmm Hmmm Hmmmm~~~~ ~ ~ ~ ~ .

My Boogie is so cute. Lovely boy. He hasn't taken a bath for almost 2 weeks, hasn't brushed his teeth for about 3 weeks, so he smells, but he is still cute. *GAH! SMELLS!!!*
The smell makes me want to puke... *GAH! SMELLS!!!* But he is still cute.
Boogie is a Yorkshire Terrier... Therefore he's cute. Even though *GAH! SMELLS!!* he smells. *coughcough*
He jumps, he eats, he pisses. *GAH! SMELLS!!* He licks, he acts, he sleeps. *GAH! SMELLS!* No matter what he does, *SMEEEEELLLLSSS!!!* no matter what people say, *SMEEEELLLLSSSS!!*he's cute.

AHAHAHAHAH!

I will be thinking of short stories to post.. maybe. Stories which have no chapters. A one-shot.
MAYBE. Because I cannot trust my brain.

Hopefully there are still some random people reading my posts. If not, this all comes to nothing but a personal rant. AHAHAHA!

Games?

2008-12-27T12:14:00.000-08:00

I can't stop telling people how I spent my time... Well, to sum it all up... Sleep, Eat, watch movies, Games, Games, Games, Games, A little of homework, Games, Games, Games, Going out for family dinners, Games games games games...

Get it? Yes? Okay.

Uhhh right.. I was tagged. Teehee.

A. Attached or single?
Single.

B. Best friend (s)?
Ehmm... 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10... I consider a lot of people ARE my best friends.

C. Cake or pie?
Pies.

D. Day of choice?
EVERYDAY!!! Something good always happen every day, even without you knowing it. Trust me.

E. Essential item?
My laptop+internet connection, PS2 console, Wii console, Cindy's Nintendo DS, Cindy's PSP, and of course my own PSP. Not forgetting all the game DVDs, my only UMD and adaptors, the remotes and stick controllers. Memory cards, too. Oh my, what a wonderful world.

F. Favourite colour?
Yellooooooowwwwwwwwwwowowowowowowwww.

G. Gummy bears or worms?
Worms. Can't wait to get them in my stomach.

H. Hometown?
Planet ABCD. I miss my planet!! D=

I. Favourite indulgence?
Games, gore/action/adventure movies, Gaiaonline, Games games games games...

J. January or July?
November.

K. Kids?
Are kyoooot.

L. Life isn't complete without?
Games games games games games games... and of course our Saviour Jesus Christ. Without Him, I wouldn't be here by now, playing wonderful games with my green bean juice next to me.

M. Marriage date?
Well... I would like to be a bride to someone I love someday... I'm a girl, too, which girls wouldn't want to lead a life filled with love, just like a princess with her prince charming, hmm? Happily Ever After? I guess I want it to be on the 7th of October. =D

N. Number of magazine subscriptions?
ZEEEEROOOOOO!!!! =D

O. Oranges or Apples?
Blackcurrant!!

P. Phobias?
HOMEWORK!!! SCHOOL!!! EXAMS!!! Damn right. =D

Q. Quotes?
Bwaaaaaaah!

R. Reasons to smile?
Games games games games games...

S. Season of choice?
Spring.

T. Tag 10 people.
Out Of Question.

U. Unknown facts about me?
I am an Alien. Believe it.

V. Vegetable?
Carrots.

W. Worst habit?
Spitting in my friends' plates during recess or lunch. Wheeee.

Y. Your favourite food?
Lots... D=

Z. Zodiac Sign?
Sagittarius, the most fun people located around the world. Errm. That was what written on one of these zodiac websites I Googled.

An Obituary

2008-12-03T05:32:00.000-08:00

WARNING: This is merely MY (annoying) THOUGHT, YOU can choose to ignore this or read on, but remember, I HAVE NEVER INTENDED TO OFFENSE ANYBODY.

OBITUARY FOR THE LATE MR. COMMON SENSE

Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, Common Sense,who has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was, since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape.

He will be remembered as having cultivated such valuable lessons as: Knowing when to come in and out of the rain; why the early bird gets the worm; Life isn't always fair; and Maybe it was my fault.

Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies (don't spend more than you can earn) and reliable strategies (adults, not children, are in charge). His health began to deteriorate rapidly when well-intentioned but overbearing regulations were set in place. Reports of a 6 year-old boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate; teens suspended from school for using mouthwash after lunch; and a teacher fired for reprimanding an unruly student, only worsened his condition.

Common Sense lost ground when parents attacked teachers for doing the job that they themselves had failed to do in disciplining their unruly children. It declined even further when schools were required to get Parental consent to administer Calpol, sun lotion, or a band-aid to a student; but could not inform parents when a student became pregnant and wanted to have an abortion.

Common Sense lost the will to live as the Ten Commandments became contraband; churches became businesses; and criminals received better treatment than their victims.

Common Sense took a beating when you couldn't defend yourself from a burglar in your own home and the burglar could sue you for assault.

Common Sense finally gave up the will to live, after a woman failed to realize that a steaming cup of coffee was hot. She spilled a little in her lap, and was promptly awarded a huge settlement.

Common Sense was preceded in death by his parents, Truth and Trust; his wife, Discretion; his daughter, Responsibility; and his son, Reason.

He is survived by his 3 stepbrothers; I Know My Rights, Someone Else Is To Blame, and I'm A Victim. Not many attended his funeral because so few realized he was gone. If you still remember him, pass this on. If not, join the majority and do nothing.

A moment of silence.

Extra notes: That is why we should never depend too much on freedom and personal gains. Taken from christiansoldiers.

LET US OPEN OUR EYES

2008-11-21T03:50:00.000-08:00

Hexakosioihexekontahexaphobia!!!!!!

Triskaidekaphobia!!!!!

Tetraphobia!!!!!

Paraskavedekatriaphobia!!!!!!

Friggatriskaidekaphobia!!!!!!

Pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis!!!!!

Floccinaucinihilipilification!!!!!

Pseudopseudohypoparathyroidism!!!!!

Honorificabilitudinitatibus!!!!!

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!!!!!!

...

What, you don't believe that such words exist? And that they have their own specific meanings?

Well, then, you've gotta open your eyes more. The world isn't all about studying and copying facts from the textbooks.They can give you cancer, or even AIDS *gets hit for uttering complete nonsense* >.<

Horoscope?

2008-11-13T23:18:00.001-08:00

I'm a Sagittarius. No worries, I just wanted to be proud of myself for being a Sagittarius. Anyway, which of these are true to describe me as a Sagittarius individual? Either the positive or the negative? *Tagboard, type something, please????? -sparkly puppy's eyes- *

Witty conversationalist, humorous
Freedom loving / free-spirited
Idealistic / believing
Moral, often having a religious streak. Righteous.
Intelligent / intellectual
Positive / optimistic
Honest / sincere
Confident
Enterprising, ambitious, devoted to their goals.
Energetic / active
Versatile
Adventurous / risk-taking
Independent /unfettered
Approachable / warm
Cheerful / likeable
Sympathetic / generous
Temperamental
Impatient / restless
Indiscreet, careless. Blunt.
Impulsive / spontaneous
Childlike

These go for other Sagittarius individuals out there!!!

And, if other Sagittarius want to find out more about their horoscope sign... HERE YOU GO

Some recommendations.

2008-11-12T17:41:00.000-08:00

Heya wazzup... In this post, I shall introduce you to some amazing mangas I have come across. I am too lazy to get pictures AND to give reviews... but I still will type what I think are good about them.

Chrno Crusade. I practically cried. Even though its setting focuses on the past America (some kinda old America) and it has lots of terms and trivias, I will still force you to read Chrno Crusade. (Ongoing)

World Embryo. Interesting and unique plot, sensational, and captivating. May be a little too hard for those who desire some light- reading, mostly due to the complications of terms used and some mentionings of different types of wavelengths.... Radioactive, mobiles etc. (Ongoing)

Amatsuki. Setting is ancient Japan, but the main character is actually from the 21st century. He got kinda like tranferred to Edo (Ancient Japan's most peaceful era) and basically is being forced to make a decision to become the new God or something, or else the Edo will be destroyed or something. It's kinda long to explain, so if you're interested go check it out by yourselves. (Ongoing)

Koukou Debut. SURPRISINGLY, this is the only shoujo manga that I liked... The main character, Haruna, is TOTALLY different from any other shoujo manga main characters. Unlike the others who are basically school girls who dream about meeting a prince charming, dark personality kind, famous, likes a popular boy, great at girly stuff, acting cool when they are actually vulnerable, when they are bullied they will just end up being saved by some boy they like, and all types that are so stereo typical, Haruna is very humane in every aspects. She's totally ordinary, and yet is extraordinary. I was smiling all the way through... Oh, and one more thing, this series is not just sweet, they've got suspense too... I mean.. I can't help but feeling all irritated when there are problems going on!!!! jisdjndv owedhn qkfn qlkefb i cant even talk properleeeh2@@@!@@@@@11!!!!!!!!! I'VE GOT NOTHING ELSE TO SAY JUST GO READ IT ALREADY. NOW. (Ongoing)

I shall let you in this superb secret. So that you won't belong in an ignorant society.

2008-11-09T06:13:00.000-08:00

BEWARE!!! YOU MUST CLICK ON THIS LINK. OPEN YOUR EYES TO WHAT THE WORLD HAS. WHAT HARM WILL IT DO TO YOU TO WAIT FOR ABOUT 2 MINUTES?! FOOLS!!!!!! >=(

6 YEAR OLD GIRL, Connie Talbot- I will always love you.

That song isn't a simple one to sing. Seriously.

Janices.

2008-11-08T10:23:00.000-08:00

Okay, so... After reading Sunthari's blog entry, I realised that there are many Janices in this world, on Earth.

So I thought, "Hey, I wanna know how many Janices are famous right now..."

And so I came to wikipedia's search bar and typed "janice". I thought I could become just like other famous Janices too. =)

Janice Acoose (born 1954) is a Canadian author, newspaper columnist, filmmaker, indigenous language advocate and professor of inidigenous literature in Saskatchewan.

Janice Burgess is the creator and executive producer of The Backyardigans, a CGI-animated series on Nick Jr. running from 2004 to 2008 about five high-spirited friends and their imaginative, musical journeys.

Janice Connolly is a British actor, comedian and artistic director.

Janice Cruz is the songwriter, lead singer and guitar player for Brooklyn-based indie rock trio Dark Room. She is a Berklee trained vocal coach (Adam Lazzara from Taking Back Sunday, Chantal Claret from Morningwood, Justin Pierre from Motion City Soundtrack, John Balicanta from Lola Ray, to name a few), the audio engineer for Nick Jr.'s Dora the Explorer and Go, Diego, Go! and is signed to New York based modeling agency Click. (Brooklyn rage~)

Janice Doreen Dickinson (born February 15, 1955) is an American supermodel,^[3] fashion photographer, actress, author and agent. She opened her own modeling agency, The Janice Dickinson Modeling Agency, after judging for four cycles on America's Next Top Model.

Janice Galloway (born 1955 in Saltcoats, Scotland) is a Scottish writer of short stories and novels.

Janice M. Holder (born August 26, 1949) is the Chief Justice on the Tennessee Supreme Court. She is the first woman ever to hold that position.

Janice Huff (born September 1, 1960) is a meteorologist for WNBC in New York City.

Janice Kawaye, born Hiromi Kawaye (河江弘美, Kawae Hiromi^?) (as she has also been credited) on January 29, 1970, is a Japanese American actress. notable for providing the voice of "Jenny" XJ-9 Wakeman on My Life as a Teenage Robot, Ami on Hi Hi Puffy AmiYumi, Sara on Invader Zim, Gi on Captain Planet and the Planeteers, and Yuzu Kurosaki on Bleach. She also provides the voices for the twins Kim and Kam Chin on the new Cartoon Network animated series Class of 3000, created by Andre Benjamin of the musical group OutKast. Kawaye is a graduate of the Los Angeles County High School for the Arts, where she was enrolled in the theater department. She made her acting debut in the 1984 movie Night of the Comet (as one of the two surviving children that was captured by the think tank in their plot to extract blood from them), and speaks fluent Japanese as demonstrated in the MLAATR episode "Speak No Evil" and through the Puffy AmiYumi series, where she and fellow cast member Keone Young (who voices Kaz) taught Grey DeLisle (Yumi's voice) to speak Japanese. It was also in that series (during the show's second season) where she voiced a character that was personally based on her in the episode "Janice Jealous", but the show's producers (Renegade Animation) have stated that the real Kawaye is much nicer than the character she portrayed.

Janice Kim is a professional go player, author, and business owner.

Janice Felty is a mezzo-soprano opera singer. She is known for her interpretations of contemporary composers like John Adams, Philip Glass, John Harbison, and Judith Weir.

Janice Long (born April 5, 1955, Liverpool, United Kingdom) is an English radio broadcaster currently working on BBC Radio 2. And, here are the list of what Janices are capable of becoming.

Janice Lynde (born March 28, 1948 in Lake Charles, Louisiana is an American actress.

Janice (Jan) Meek (formerly Janice Byles) FRGS (British, born 1944) is a Guinness World Record holding adventurer, ocean rower, international motivational speaker and polar adventurer.

Janice Pennington (born July 8, 1942 in Seattle, Washington) was one of the original "Barker's Beauties" models on The Price Is Right, from 1972 to 2000.

Janice Silverman Rebibo (born 1950) is an Israeli poet who began writing in Hebrew in the mid-1980s while studying at Hebrew College in Boston, the city of her birth.

Janice Robinson, born and raised in Garfield, New Jersey^[1], gained worldwide success in the early-mid 1990s with the Eurodance/Hi-NRG/Italo House group Livin' Joy as the lead singer before going solo in 1999.

Janice Sosebee, nee Janice Colaianni (born July 30, 1952, Paterson, New Jersey). American radio broadcast journalist.

Janice Georgina Alice Eleanor Switlo (born 1959) is a Canadian lawyer and author.

Janice May Udry (1928-) is an American author.

Janice M. Vidal, often credited as Janice, is a female cantopop, jazz and R&B singer based in Hong Kong.

Janice Elaine (Ford) Voss, Ph.D. (born 8 October 1956) is an American astronaut.

Janice Weber (birthdate unknown) is an American pianist and author.

Janice Woods Windle is a Texas author.

And OMG I realised yet another thing... All of these Janices seem to share similar careers... except for the one who is an astronaut.

Here is the compiled list of what Janices are capable of doing, (which means I may be able to become like one of them *winks*)...

1) Literature and language stuff, e.g. authors, lawyers, motivational speakers, etc...
2) Music related stuff, e.g. singers, pianists...
3) Going on an adventure, e.g. adventurers, astronauts...
4) Being PRETTY and GOOD-LOOKING, e.g. actresses, models...
5) High curiosity level, e.g. meteorologists, astronauts, adventurers...
6) BEING FUNNY and ENTERTAINING, of course!!! e.g. actresses, comediennes...

Do you see it? I personally think it's awesome. How strange yet it's real. Don't you see the connection? If you twist your mind a little you will clearly see the wires connecting the Janices. I mean, come on, how come Janices share so many similar traits? D;

This is just making me confused, though. I have questions going on inside of my head, but this special one which can only be answered complicatedly, "Are Janices destined to be like this...?"

I am fully aware that there are many other Janices who are not as lucky as these Janices I listed above, but who knows, maybe their careers are similar, too?

Well... And so I have come to one simple conclusion...

I used to like my name, but now I love it.

P.S. ~ I dare my fellow readers to post a similar entry like this one!!! ~

First, you go to wikipedia. Second, type your name in the search bar. Third, press enter. Fourth, post the names which have appeared on your entry. Fifth, you comment on them. It's really up to you.

My desires.

2008-11-07T17:11:00.000-08:00

Ahhh!!!! I want to play OTOME!!!!!!!! BE IT PLAYABLE ON PC, PS2, NDS!! Despite how I dislike fangirl-ing... I am still a gamer, and a girl to top it with.

I want the new innovation of PSP!!!! SO THAT I CAN PLAY MANYYY, MANYYYY, MOOOOOORE GAMES, RANGING FROM RPGs, OTOMEs,

I want LOTSA GAIA GOLD!!! Just to make me feel better, teehee. It's greed, I tell ya, GREED.

I want The Pandora!!!!!!! I can surf the net anywhere and anytime I wish to!!!

I want to have FERGIE'S, DOLORES', OR KONNO HIROMI'S VOICE!!!!

I want to BE ABLE TO PLAY THE VIOLIN SUPERBLY WELL!!!!!! (someday, maybe)

I want to BE IN ANOTHER DIMENSION!!!!! Then, perhaps, I would be able to experience how is it like living in a fantasy world.

I want to HUG MY LITTLE SISTER MICHELLE TIGHTLY AND CARRESS HER SMOOTH, FAIR CHEEKS!!!!!! (okay... I admit that sounds horribly wrong.)

I don't want to GO FOR F*CKING CHOIR PRACTICES.

I don't want to DO MORE MATH THAN I HAVE ALREADY DONE. Even if it's necessary.

I don't want to BE LOOKED DOWN UPON. Especially by those who don't know what I actually am capable of. If I'm serious, I can make you cry, kneel and beg me for my mercy. You would even be willing to lick my soles.

I don't want to BE CAGED OR CHAINED BY RESPONSIBILITIES. Let me roam free!!!

I wish to... ESCAPE FROM THE REALITY I'M FACED WITH, even though I know I won't be able to.

Life is a prison,
Oh God let me out.
No one to listen,
To hear when you shout.

Climb the walls of insanity,
Ride the waves of despair.
If you fall it don't matter,
There's no one to care.

Used to wish for a window,
To see birds, trees and sky,
But you're better without one -
Stops you aiming too high.

Watching freedom is painful,
For those locked away.
Seeing joy, love and happiness,
Another price that you pay.

Strong is good, weak is bad.
Be it false, be it true.
Your mind makes the choice,
And enforces it too.

Cell walls built by society,
With rules to adhere.
If you breach the acceptable,
You had better beware.

Hide the pain, carry on,
Routine is the key.
Don't let on that you're not,
What you're pretending to be.

Lock it all up inside you,
How badly that bodes.
Look out for that one day,
When it all just explodes.

Leaving naught but a shell,
Base functionality too.
But killing all else,
That was uniquely you.

So how do you grow,
With a timebomb inside?
Or how to defuse it,
Without destroying its ride?

You can't.

Yes,
You simply can't.

Now is the time for bentos.

2008-11-05T11:38:00.000-08:00

LUST OVER THESE. LUST.

Yo there!!

2008-11-02T03:49:00.000-08:00

I LOVE sweet stuff. But I also LOVE this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KYHzcM32f1I

LOOK OUT, PEOPLE, THEY LOOK SO DELiCIOUS!!!

2008-11-02T01:50:00.000-07:00

Yo there.

2008-11-01T22:28:00.000-07:00

To remind myself as well my fellow blog readers about *probably* the most important thing in our life, which is TIME, I'll be putting some flash clocks here. =)

WHOOOO!!! You sure do realise that all of these come mostly from anime series. Since I unabled right click on my blog page, you can't take them by right- click, save as, but I'm sure the pictures should be click-able, and the link should lead you to an awesome Chinese website. Screw it, I do the work for you D=

*is hit for making readers' page loads slowly*

SUBLIMINAL MESSAGE!!!

2008-11-01T11:15:00.000-07:00

BARNEY IS TRULY EVIL.

If you don't know, you should go check this out. Firstly, you must prepare unique minds before you click on the link.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V_y-gb9WhPg

Whooo hooo

2008-10-28T01:05:00.000-07:00

Guess what people... I felt all mighty today =D ( 28 October 2008).

To kill my boredom, I found something cool and decided to try those out... Here are my results, feel free to try them out as well.

HumanForSale.com - Fun Survey

Am-I-Dumb.com - Intelligence Test

Your Number Correct:	14/25
Average Number Correct:	17.67/25
Time Taken:	2:30

CadaverForSale.com - How much is your cadaver worth?

I'll find more~

Hahahaha

2008-10-13T00:19:00.000-07:00

LOOK AT THIS...!!!

http://img511.imageshack.us/my.php?image=screenshotroarmu2.jpg

copy and pasting recommended.

Yay

2008-10-12T16:56:00.000-07:00

It turned out that there was no practice at all today. So I'm going back to the bed which I lie down on for 2 hours. TeeHee. Fun experience seeing ghosts at night. I recommend it.

Hoola Hoop.

2008-10-12T10:18:00.000-07:00

Just wanted to let everyone know that I'm still up even though the time is now 1.35 am (as indicated on my monitor), and I find myself crying out loud for the fact that I have to go to school today. 8 more hours to go before taking a cab to school for some @zzholish performance practice. 5hi7. I guess I'll spend the time searching for more... horror and gory movies. Hahas. Mind you, it's 1.37 am and I'm alone in my room, my sister and cousin have officially gone to their lalalands for another night. I'm gonna off the lights and watch some thrilling movies. Mwuaha.

By the way, The Ring is quite intense if you watch it alone in the middle of the night. Or dark morning, I should say. Samara's got to be the best made- up ghost character in my 15 years of living. Anyone recommend me some better stuff?

And... just wanted to let everyone see...

EXAM IS OVER.

HOORAY. HURRAH.

EXAM IS OVER. YA HEAR ME?!

EXAM IS OVER!!!!

EXAM IS OVER!!!!!!

EXAM. IS. OVER!!!!!!!!!!!

Tokens from me to you =D

2008-09-12T07:12:00.001-07:00

So many things had happened these past few months. I recalled most of them were the times when I felt like I was living a misurable life, filled with dying thoughts corrupting my views of the world. However, there were people who encouraged me without themselves knowing that they did lift me up when I needed THAT particular encouragement most.

In this post, I wanted to express my gratefulness to them. I am really thankful to you all, everyone who is currently reading this post, because in a way, you have cared for me; especially people whose names are gonna be here in the post =) You have all helped me to live a longer life, will it be by a day, a year, a decade, or even a lifetime. Thanks, all. I know I'm unworthy but just let me give you virtual hugs? *hugs*

Okay. Let's move on. Firstly,

Thanks a bunch, Amanda, for you ARE AWSUMMMM. You add a new colour to my life. A sparkling, vibrant one. On this lifeless canvas of mine, you have drawn something on it to make it alive. I swear this unworthy canvas can dance by now. You are such an amazing person whom people would always want by their side. No wonder Shunatsu misses joo so much... :) Also, when you feel down or irritated, you can always talk to me, be it via internet, text messaging or just approach me when we're in school, I'll listen to you and try my best to return the favour? =) It's really okay, you know.

Claire, I must firstly say sorry for always complaining to you D= I think I'm burning your ears just by telling you to listen to my complaints >.> However, you will always listen to me anyway... Thank you... And when I have mood swings... You will not upset me but I feel guilty for being rude to you during those times, so once again, sorry? There are so much more that you've done for me at the expense of your benefits, but I couldn't mention them all. They will all stay in my precious memory, though~ <3

Rachel dear, thank you for being so kind to me. I am so unworthy of your kindness... I will do more things to make you feel better next time, okayz, because for you to stay with this super boring person nicknamed Alien is hard D= But you are still there for me... You've shared so many things with me but I think I haven't shared that much with you. Sobs. You are the best Rachel in this world. *thumbs up*

For Wan Yi, we share a common thing =D *You do know what that commong thing is, ;) * Yay!! Thank you for speaking your mind out to me. And asking me for advices even though I can't help you much. Thank you sooooo much, you just don't know how much they mean to me =)

MIN YEE Minnie Mouse, you inspire me in everything you do. That's an achievement you know D= You may not know it, but you really are important to me too. If I don't know you, I may not be what I am today. =)

Sun Sun Sun Sunthari, heyyy there, I am so very grateful that I am able to meet you in this era. You is cool... Sorry if in any way I have disappointed you, but you always talk to me through msn and you'll listen to my depressing views of life D= Thank you for always mentioning the goodness and the might of Jesus.

Little Pree, when I was on the verge of giving everything up, you talked to me and asked me stuff to give me encouragements. Thanks. Lalalalla. If you didn't talk to me that time, I might be dead by now, and not in a very good way.

Alice, yo, thanks for always visiting my blog. Thanks for always reminding me when I go overboard. It makes me reflect and improve myself.

Sukhbir and Ying Ting, you two are the winnahz. I have always dreamed about the day when I can finally meet people whose interests very much match mine. And you are the ones. Be proud that you're special!! I value you two as comrades, and I like the both of you~ *pawwwww* Continue to be aliens, you two won't know when you are going to actually help me if I'm down once again in the future.

A few last people but not least...

My sisters Cindy and Michelle. You have both been rude to your jie jie D= by scolding and shouting at me in the face D= But you two woke me up. I always love you. If I were asked to save myself or the both of you, I would choose the both of you. I'm ready to sacrifice anything for you two, lovelies. I'm glad that my sisters are you ;]

My precious, precious, precious cousin... who always listens to whatever ugly or nice complaints or comments my mouth has to say... And always gives the best solutions to me problems ever... FELICIA!!! *screams* YOU ARE A GIFT FOR ME. I LIKEZ YOU. SO MUCH. *HUGS AND SQUEEEEEZES*

And, finally, my best friend forever Monica... Mon, makasih banyak yah, lo udah mau bersedia dengerin masalah2 gw. Makasih karena lo udah mau jadi temen gw, meskipun gw gak sempurna. Makasih banget udah jadi seseorang yang menghubungkan gw dgn dunia, soalnya klo bkn karena lo mungkin gw udah ga ada lagi di dunia ini hohoho... Gw. Sayang. Banget. Sama. Lo. SUMPAH. =D

K, so that's the end of it =] Overall, I just wanna say thanks to you all =)
G' bye!! *runsopenswindowjumpswheeeeeeeecrashes*

Yay again

2008-08-16T23:02:00.000-07:00

Okay. I have nothing much to tell.. It's just that I'm happy. Because exams are over. Wheeee~!!!

THIS MESSAGE BELOW HERE IS A MESSAGE FOR MONMON ONLY, THEREFORE IT CAN ONLY BE UNDERSTOOD BY MONMON

Iyah... itu foto gw :D Tapi gw jelek banget sekarang, jadi malu klo ketemu nanti. Gimana keadaan lo? Baik- baik aja? Ato masih patah hati? Meski mungkin gw ga ngerti gimana perasaan lo, lo masih bisa cerita ke gw. Gw bakal dengerin mau berapa lamapun juga. Klo sudah takdir pasti nanti jadian, deh, sekarang lo tinggal percaya ama gw dan kasih tahu gw semuanya, tentang perasaan lo, pikiran lo, keadaan lo, dan gw bakal doain dari sini. Semoga lo kuat selalu!!!!!

Gw kangen nih. Kangen. Kangen. Kangen. Kangen. Gw di sini juga baik- baik aja, meskipun awalnya banyak rintangan. Waktu baru mulai sekolah, gw sering ditindas temen sekelas, mungkin karena faktor bahasa, rasanya stres dan sedih banget. Gw pikir gw tuh bego, jelek, gendut, dan ga punya satu pun sisi yang bagus dalam diri gw. Waktu itu, gw pengen banget balik lagi ke masa SD, di mana kita masih bisa iseng- isengan berdua, belajar berdua, menghajar temen- temen cowok berdua, ngegosip tentang komik berdua, telepon- teleponan berdua. Berat banget beban gw, tapi sekarang semuanya udah oke. Kelas 3, ganti kelas, dan untungnya gw berhasil masuk ke kelas yg lebih bagus. Sekarang gw jadi wakil ketua kelas. Dan temen- temenku juga nambah. Walaupun hidupku jadi sedikit ringan sekarang, beban di hati gw masih belum terangkat.

Beban apakah itu? Beban berpisah ama lo. Gw takut klo nanti kita ga bisa ketemu lagi. Gw takut lo bakal lupa ama gw. Gw takut klo hidup lo sekarang tuh lagi susah. Gw takut lo tuh sengsara, mon... Gw takut lo ga punya siapa- siapa untuk ngedukung moral lo.. Gw takut suatu saat nanti persahabatan kita tuh cuman kenangan doang... Soalnya gw sayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang banget sama lo. Walaupun sekarang lo ga ada di deket gw, gw tetep nganggep lo sebagai sahabat gw yang terbaik. Termanis, tersayang, terlucu, terhebat, pokoknya segala- galanya deh!!

Jujur, gw nangis pas gw nulis ini. Dan mungkin nanti klo kita ketemu gw bakal nangis juga. Sori klo gw jadi cengeng!!! >.<
Gw juga pengen denger suara lo. Mon, klo ada apa- apa, segera hubungin gw melalui hp, blog ini atau apapun juga deh. Gw akan selalu ada deket kamu. Mungkin di dimensi yang ngga terlihat, kita lagi jalan berdua, saling berbagi rasa senang dan duka sambil menangis dan tersenyum. Cieehhh... Tapi gw seriuss!!!

Okeh, sampe di sini dulu deh :') Besok- besok gw bakal ceritain lebiiiiiih banyak hal lagi!! Peluk buat lo, sahabat lo yang jadi cengeng-- Jane.

(> ﾟヮﾟ)>

Check this out

2008-08-15T20:12:00.001-07:00

Ways to kill yourselves. Simple, clean, for all attention whores like me. Easy ways to make people know that you kill yourselves. Quite unique and creative, I must say.

http://www.a1b2c3.com/suilodge/metfun1.htm

I is bored

2008-08-15T08:51:00.000-07:00

Helloz. Heehee. I want to try doing this. WARNING: Seen in Sun's blog.

1.The way to win your heart?
I don't know.

2.What did you do last night?
Sleep, Bio, SS, but it all came to nothing. I felt sleepy at school, I couldn't do my Bio paper and SS was plain failure for me.

3.Do you have the same name as one of your relatives?
Nope. Aliens have different names, even if it's just by a letter. Example: Princess Alien Havocry Norstein and Princess Alien Havocryy Norstein. See that?

4.Are you looking for a boyfriend/girlfriend?
No... I'm leaving that matter into my parents' hand D: No one is up to my standard, and anyway, I won't get any. I'm just... me.

5.One song that's meaningful to you ?
Solveig's song - Eternal love... I know this can be weird, but I do believe in everlasting lovey dovey thingy.

6.Do you twirl or scoop your spaghetti?
I use my hands. Where's the option for that, huh?

7.Do you drink milk straight from the carton?
No. Glasses are made for a purpose, aren't they?

8.How long is your hair?
Approximately 35 centimetres.

9.Do you like Batman?
No. Not really. But I do like Achmed.

10.Who was the last person who told you they loved you?
My parents.

11.Addicted to anything?
Gaiaonline.

13.Do you like anyone now?
Yes!! I like a lot of people... Hmm let's see... I like Rachel, Claire, Amanda, Min Yee, Wan Yi, Sunthari, Preeya, Alice, Felicia, Cindy, Mom, Dad, Michelle, Auntie Ratna, Auntie Jan, Aunt Eva, Mrs Gan, Mrs Soh... and not forgetting Monica.

14.When was the last time you sang out loud?
This afternoon - around the locker area, confessing my love for Claire, Felicia and Cindy.

15.What did you have for breakfast?
Curry buns.

16.Is your birthday on a holiday?
Yes, a school holiday.

17.What instant messaging service do you use?
Windows Live messenger, because I'm too lazy to download anything else.

18.Can you cook?
I'm a FAILURE in cooking, I can't even cook water or instant food.

19.Did you have a nap today?
No. I. Did. Not.

20.What was the reason you got in trouble last?
I don't think I have gotten into any trouble these past few weeks... Except for studying.. That counts?

21.What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?
Pants.

22.When is your birthday?
I forgot.

23.Do you swear a lot ?
F*ck. Bastard. Shit. Holy cow. Rascal. Jerk.

24.Where did you get the shirt(s)you're wearing?
My father's flying wardrobe.

25.Do you have any regrets?
Now I don't. I used to.

26.What was your first alcoholic drink?
................ Coca Cola?

28.What color are your favorite shoes?
Transparent. They are a pair of invisible shoes.

29.Who would you like to see right now?
My prince charming.

30.Are you a social or antisocial person?
What do you think?

31.Have the cops ever come by your house?
Have not. I will make them come soon, though.

32.Ever been in love?
Maybe.

33.Ever had braces?
No, but I'm currently forced to have one.

34.Who was the first person to really break your heart?
No one. Everyone is so nice.

35.What do you wear to bed?
Nothing. Now, guess whether I'm joking or being serious.

36.Who was your first best friend and are you still friends with them?
First best is Monica, over in Indonesia, for a straight 9 years. She's one marvelous fellow :D And yes, I'm still friends with her. Plus, she's still my best friend. We're planning to hold a reunion when I go home on End of Year holidays. She has purposely planned the time and everything for me... *is touched*

37.Who was the last person to disappoint you?
No one. I'm always satisfied with everything.

38.Do you trust people?
I do, but I will still be aware of them.

39.Who was the first person you talked to today?
My guardian.

40.Who was the first person to text you today?
No one... SO sad right. My phone is hibernating, anyway.

41.What was the first thing you did this morning?
Woke up from my slumber. Shit.

Fun!

2008-08-10T08:17:00.000-07:00

Hello, all. Below is the source of my happiness today.

It's strange, but this picture comforts me today. It makes me so happy just by looking at it. Feels like something is just right... I'm so happy.. Oh dear, I am so happy.. This picture makes me happy today. Really. I am very happy. Actually, not exactly happy, but... This strange feeling of bliss... I don't know how to express it in words, but this picture is just amazing for me.

Yay

2008-08-05T03:45:00.001-07:00

Songs added!!!

1) Oceano- Josh Groban
2) How Far We've Come- Matchbox 20
3) Umiyuki- Jero
4)Bendera- Cokelat (Indonesian Band)
5) The Time of Our Lives- Il Divo (Fifa World Cup Germany 2006)
6) Cinema Paradiso- Josh Groban

I feel like ranting but no time to.

D:

See you all in the next update

D:

Ahhhhh!!

2008-08-03T01:12:00.000-07:00

D:

Strictly For Sunthari Only
CLICKIE.

You are The Wheel of Fortune

Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of
intoxication with success

The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Nooooooooooo

2008-07-27T03:56:00.001-07:00

I had fun with Gaiaonline. Thanks to Amanda who re- introduced me to it.

I'll ask myself now.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE? YOU'VE GOT NOTHING TO TELL, AND YOUR HOMEWORK IS LEFT UNDONE.

I HAVEN'T DONE CHEMISTRY

TOO MUCH FOR ME

D:

BOO

I LIKE CHEMISTRY

BUT IT'S SO HARD

I SHOULD ENCOURAGE MYSELF MORE OFTEN

NO MATTER WHAT PEOPLE SAY

I think I suck

D:

Man...

I am happy

At home

At school

At the bus

At the classes

At CCA

But I'm still not satisfied

I hope I can be better

D:

Anyone wants to cheer me up

by buying me Jero's first album Umiyuki

as an early birthday present?

:D

Joke, joke

BooHoo at my life

D:

Jaaaaang jaaaaaang jaaaaang jaaaaaang!!!!!!

2008-07-26T07:09:00.000-07:00

THIS IS THE 11TH POST

OH NOES CHOIR IS KILLING ME

NO FUN

D:

I WISH I WAS IN ANOTHER CCA

LIKE GUITAR OR BAND OR ANGKLUNG

OR TRACK AND FIELD OR GIRL GUIDES

OR INFOCOMM OR IJ MISSION

OTHER THINGS BUT CHOIR

I DON'T PERSONALLY CARE

ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE SAY ABOUT ME REGARDING THIS MATTER

I JUST WANT SOME FUN IN MY LIFE

SOME FUN

IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR?

AM I THE SELFISH ONE, OR IS IT JUST HOW THE WORLD WORKS AGAINST ME?

AND THEN THERE IS MATH

AND ENGLISH

AND ANY OTHER SUBJECTS

I WANT TO GET BETTER BUT I CAN'T

GUESS I'LL HAVE TO WORK HARDER

ALL IN ALL,

I SUCK.

END.

Hey I like how this post looks like :D

Very Early In The Morning

2008-07-19T09:30:00.000-07:00

Hello. Today was really bad. I had never experienced a day which was so boring and so controlled by other people like today in my whole life. I was very tired, and my head kept on ponding. Like somebody squeezed my entire head from both sides. No, four sides would be a better illustration.

E Geog test on Monday... Shit. Shit. Shit. But I still had to go through it anyway. Auuggghhh.

Anyway, I'll post some pictures too. No worries, they're all featuring me.

My house. The corridor near the lift. 6th floor. No, I'm not going to tell you what I was doing then. I think it can be quite clearly seen. Oh, and thanks to Felicia for taking the photos.

Can you see Richard and Adelle pushing me?

There will be no updates from Richard today. He's been asleep on his white bed since approximately 2 hours ago.

Ahahaha.

2008-07-18T03:55:00.000-07:00

Well, hello. I'm here to share some unique facts about my life which actually may tickle your brain and make you laugh out loud aka LOL.

Let's start digging in into my memory, shall we?

First. Claire is a BEARFISH.
Second. I told Preeya that I was a tree, but in fact, I am still an alien now who is currently pretending to be a tree because I want to.

Third. I treasure the time I spent discussing with Amanda about the facts behind the truth, and cherish the moment Rachel said "You broke my heart!!" with additions whatsoever (as well as calling her " a person who is always confused on spending money on snacks but will end up buying them anyway". The most.

Fourth. Bear, Fel and I went for our tuition at a friend's house which was 31 feet above the ground on Thursday, yesterday. When we were finished with it, Felicia entered the lift innocently and peacefully, thinking that the lift would not move if she didn't press any buttons. She was happily waving to Bear and Bear was laughing, not knowing that something rare which was most unlikely to happen to a 13 to 16 year old girls, actually happened. You see, the lift went up. Because Fel didn't press any button and a person who was located higher above the ground was calling for the lift. AND SHE WAS IN THE LIFT. WHEN WE WANTED TO GO DOWN.

Guess what happened then. Bear and I laughed our way through, and by "our way through" I meant I wouldn't forget that. Priceless.

By the way, Richard wants to type and update too. But it'll be too troublesome for me to create another blog, so I'll let him type here.

Greetings, puny short humans. I'm Richard and is currently training my leg muscles so that I can catch and kidnap Ignatius when he's off- guard in the near future. Regardless of him being quite a lousy sportsman or anything, I still couldn't catch up to him the other day.

Shit, this is like, I admit that I'm not good in running too. Janice advised me to stop smoking, but it's just so fun experimenting with cigarettes of different brands. Heh. Even though Adelle is unhappy about the fact that the smell is getting stronger and keep hitting my head with that strange- looking stick. AND NO. She is not my girlfriend. Who wants to even be acquainted to a bone- eating beast? But, I've gotta admit that she is basically a kind individual. Well. Actually... She keeps quiet most of the time. So I can't judge her personality yet. ... I NEED ANOTHER PERSON TO TALK TO AT HOME!!!!!

Today, I carried around a teddy bear at Janice's school. And Ignatius was avoiding me for no apparent reason. Really, I did nothing wrong. All I did was trying to start a conversation with the teddy bear like a 3 year old irritating girl would. As usual, Adelle chewed on bones and rarely talked to me. The only thing she told me was "toilet" and she went away before recess. I was bored, so I played Monkey Bar at that corridor near the greeeen lodge or something. Oh, the corridor had this board thingy and "Ignatius Link", all in capitals, was written on it. It was so fun, I think I would try doing this again near the bookshop's corridor while swearing at the bookshop lady.

Then, us three, with Janice's cousin went home together. Routines. Oh, Janice's friend Bear wasn't with us. She was off doing her History project over at the library. I missed playing with her hair today.

Signed,
Richard "Uncle Retard" Schwertz

Yes.

2008-07-13T03:14:00.000-07:00

I felt much better after going to church. Many things happened and I basically cried all along. Hahaha. Yes. I kept crying for almost the whole sermon. About one and a half hour.

I'll walk my path religiously from now on... I guess. Heh. That may not be true, but oh well, blogs are supposed to be used to express your feelings when you type.

Anyway, after I finished church I went to Marina Mandarin. It's the marina at the mandarin hotel. Before taking my lunch, I lingered around the stalls. I found some interesting things but, I didn't have the budget. So I didn't pay taxes for the day in the shopping category.
I ate popiah for lunch. It was delish...!!!!! And as for desert, I ate the red ruby and jackfruit ice. I got bored of ice kachang, you see.

Then I went home. Did some homework but got tired and sleepy. Onned the computer, and helped ST with her blog. Then I'd be doing the rest of the homework after this update. End of story.

Yay..?

2008-07-12T07:18:00.000-07:00

OKAY!!!! Now for real.

Hello... Today I did nothing much. My parents left in the morning. But, before that event, I woke up before them and stole some chocolate cake from the fridge. Then I sat on the sofa quietly. My father came out of the room and saw me sitting there. He said he was surprised, he thought he was seeing things like, you know, ghosts. I evil- laughed.

Afterwards I went back to sleep because.. IT WAS 6.45 am. Meaning I woke up even earlier. Who in the world would wake up that early on a holiday? And so I did.

I woke up again at 10 am. Played played played and did some of my homework. Shit I haven't done heymath. I remembered asking Claire to watch Hellboy II, but she couldn't because she had 2 birthday parties to attend to. And so I watched the movie together with Felicia, Cindy and Michelle, the cutest and kindest cousin/ little sisters anyone would ever have. Richard and Adelle followed, too.

We bought FOOD, let the tickets be torn and went up to enter the cinema only to be stopped by the guard. He said the tickets were WRONG. They were supposed to be for the 7.15 pm slot, but instead 3.55 pm were written on them. OH SHIT THAT CASHIER BASTARD and then I exchanged them. Lucky us, we've got the reserved seats for online transaction. Those seats required an extra dollar each, but we didn't need to pay for them. Because of this, I thanked the cashier. Or else I would be swearing.

Richard made his way through 5 sausages and a set of nachos and a drink. Adelle just watched the movie and took glances of the greedy individual sitting next to her.

All in all, today was okay. Even though I still have homeworks to be done.

This part of the blog is for the sole purpose of annoying Claire (copied and pasted from Sunthari's blog)

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HA! I'm not gonna delete them. Thanks to Sunthari for granting me the permission.

Perfectionist?!

2008-07-12T06:32:00.000-07:00

Okay. You see, my guardian noticed my strange pattern of behaviour and told my parents about it. Yes, I don't live with my parents. So they came yesterday, for me, and brought a so-called-counselor. Psychiatrist. They thought I was going crazy. Heck. I was just.. unwell. Sick in the heart and brain, but nothing so big that they actually needed to worry.

I was being interrogated like those evil- doers in the police stations. Except this whole thing was about Math.

The counselor told me that she had called the school because she wanted to know how I was doing there. She spoke to my form teacher and it seemed like I wasn't having any problems whatsoever. And that I was just like any ordinary stereotypical good school girl. We came to a conclusion that the roots of these problems was none other than Math. I was telling her all of my problems with Math, like how I felt there was always unfairness being done on those who tried but couldn't with those who didn't even try. We got the same discouraging results, but some of us really did try. That was what making me hate Math.

Another point was, if others could, why couldn't I? I should have been able to do okay like other students who could. I wanted to be good in everything, even if it WAS impossible for me to begin with. I just wanted to climb higher than I actually could. I wanted to be above there, where nobody else could stand on. I didn't allow a mistakes to be made. Therefore I couldn't allow myself failing. Guess what the counselor told me? I was a perfectionist. It's a double- sided blade, it could be good and it could be bad. I felt more of the bad side. Putting pressures on myself. Heh.
So in the end, I would have to learn to spare myself a little mercy. To face the reality that I couldn't be better than anyone at everything. That's shit for me, but it's the real world. If I were to compare, I was way behind those who did well in their lives. They made me jealous because I didn't see me in them. I was unable to stand there, when I wanted to stand way above. I was really left out. I was of no use to the world.

But, who cares about my thoughts? For now, I have to keep the door to my future opened. Everyone is giving their very best for me. My parents, my grandmother, my aunt, my guardian, my cousins and my little sisters. And it isn't just them. There may be somebody else out there who is caring for me. Imagine, all those people are trying their hardest for someone like me, someone who is left behind with no talent. Someone who doesn't even regard her life as worthy. But they are there, smiling for me, laughing for me, crying for me and caring about me. How can I refuse their helping hands?

This must be God's way to show that He loves even a nobody like me. He wants me to endure and always put my faith in Him. I have to apologise to Him.

P.S. If you are one of those who knows me, really cares about me and has helped me before, thank you very much for your effort. Thank you for keeping me alive. Thank you for everything. If you aren't, thank you for not making my life more misurable and for letting me know you.

Yesssshhh.

2008-07-09T06:50:00.000-07:00

Hello. I just feel like updating since I'm on the computer.

I'm proud to announce that I have done most of my homework for the day.
1) English speech (even though it was a compilation of crap)
2) Typing out MT composition
3) SS political cartoons
4) Biology (virtual) practicals (nonsensical explanations and definitions)

Wheee!! NO MATH!!!!!

Wait. I think I missed out a thing. *checks the homework list*

I FORGOT TO DO MY MT COMPOSITION CORRECTION!!!!!!!

IT IS A LOT!!!

AAHHHH!

Always cherish the times when you can be idiots.

2008-07-07T01:13:00.000-07:00

AHAHAHAHA!!!111oneo!1O!n!1

Yessssshhhh. Okay. Phew. The time is now 4.30 pm (on my monitor.), it's too early for an update but.. I'm bored. Maybe I'll update again at night.

Ahhhh!!! I live a regular, boring life full of routines and free time (during holidays, and I don't bother bringing heavy books home, that explains why my results aren't very good). I know I should have used the time for something more useful, like what, practice my math or drawing or read a book etc etc . Or read up articles about Epistemology (I could even study it via internet, but...).
And I haven't done any homework (math {HA! I don't even want the word "math" appears in a normal size in my blog}- not done, social studies- not done, English- not done, Chemistry- not done) Ahahahaha... I'll just follow the flow. I'll do them when I want to.
WARNING: This habit of mine isn't a very good example for little brats under the age of 2.

So. The reasons why I update the blog areeeeh...
1) For some reasons, I need to type.
2) I came across some pretty pretty blog skins and they're wasted if I didn't use them sooner or later.
3) Trying to get it more active.
4) AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
5) Now, I can only use computers on weekends and holidays. OH NUUOOOOOOUUUUUUUOOO.. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. ... ... ...
6) :D
7) I'm THAT bored.

Because of all the reasons above, expect updates on (mostly) weekends or holidays!!! ... Provided I have internet access.

Oh, oh, oh, by the way, by the way, I

Okay, that's all. I don't know why, but I find it amusing to type unfinished sentences.

YAY

Lalala

2008-07-06T03:19:00.000-07:00

I guess everything's cooled down (for now). Bible makes my life easier.

But I can't guarantee that I won't be all down again. I'm not someone special, so I bet I will make mistakes every now and then. But! I'll try to move on.

All's well that ends well, I'm okay now. I guess.

Under cover

2008-07-05T05:17:00.000-07:00

I. Am. Still. Not. Needed. And. I. Do. Not. Care.

I don't know... I just keep thinking that the world stays the same even if it has no me.

I guess these are the things that contribute to my current thoughts and feelings.

1) MATH. The horror.
2) MATHEMATICS
3) MATH MATH
4) ADD MATH ADD MATH ADDMATHADDMAT HADD MATH
5) AM AM AM AM AM AM
6) MATH!!!
7) Just me. I can only spend my parents' money. I make no profit. No one needs me. I have no special traits, no extraordinary presence, no talent, no intelligence. Anyone can replace me just fine. It's always alright even if I am not here. Some may even think that I'm a nuisance. That I steal their happiness, fortune or blessings away. I am just another parasite. Please ignore this unbearable creature. If you are unable to do so... Kick it, spit on it, hit it, burn it, bleed it, scratch it, stab it, do hurtful things to it. Doing those things will make some of you feel better, doesn't it?

I wish I could be somebody else. One individual who has talents. Not a pain in the ass creature like me.

Let's start anew.

2008-07-04T04:07:00.000-07:00

Yes. You read it. Let us start anew. Welcome the new me, one who sees life as a journey full of thorns. Hurt. Horror. Sadness. Sufferings.

Since the second semester started, I had been feeling down. I tried to appear as normal as possible so that I could live my usual life without anyone questioning me why. I ran out of ways to lighten up my mood and the loads of my heart, so I thought "My blog's deserted, no one's been coming there often. Maybe I could express bits of my little thoughts on there and not being discovered by public" since I was too lazy to make a new one. Or to write it out on a diary. So here I am.

(Funny, I couldn't even tell my parents/cousins/basically family about how I was feeling. When they ask, I would just say I was fine.)

I'm tired of everything. Of living, of thinking, of talking, of smiling, etc. As in, really, everything. I wish I could just stay in my bedroom, fantasizing about anything that could happen to me IF I was not the current me. I wish I was a plant. I wish I was someone else. I wish I was living someone else's life. Because it WAS/IS/WILL BE misurable living a life like mine. It WAS/IS/WILL BE uncomfortable being pushed to do something which is not a subject of your interest. It wasn't like I wanted to *ahem* die or end my life or something... I just wanted to live a different life.

I had nothing to begin with. I had been a failure at everything since I was born. I couldn't excel in studies or sports or any medium. It wasn't like I was good at anything. I was just being a retarded little being who messes with people's lives. I wasn't needed anyway. So why was I living? Why was I created? I had no idea. If I just disappeared, nothing would change. I was just ONE of millions of people on Earth. In fact, people's lives might turn out to be better. They could all save the resources. The world would go on without me. No big deal.

That way, both parties would be happier. End of story.

However, I wasn't intending on turning bad. I would continue living a hellish life and wear my mask until I become someone who could truly smile and be genuinely happy. Then, I would be able to trash the mask.

La, la, la, la, la, la.

Weird, now I'm worried about my grammar and tenses. Never mind, I don't really care. In fact I could just be another Jackal right now.